To sleep, perchance to dream

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I wonder about the day when I'll wake up and not want to kill myself. In the meantime I'm doing a very poor job of distracting myself. Living is easy, natural, effortless. It's surviving that's hard. When every movement I make feels like it weights a ton. And I can't even applaud myself at the end of the day for making it out alive because it would require too much effort. I always thought sleep would make things better but I count headaches to fall asleep. Sleeping is torture. It's the time when my mind slowly chews every part of my body. I don't wonder why I wake up wanting to kill myself when sleep has already begun the process. No, I wonder when it will stop and how strange I will feel when it does.

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